I hope you know

“Didn’t I tell you not to ever tell him you like him? You’re stubborn… always listening to others. Look now, what’s happened? It’s still the same, right? Hey, Syera! Aren’t you tired of being humiliated by Daniel before? Don’t you remember what he did to you that left you disappointed for years? You’re so foolish as a woman! You had a rough time with him before, right? Do you want to repeat history again? Wake up, Syera… he will never like you!”

It’s something I’ve expected all along. Am I right? Aku tepuk sebelah tangan, aren’t I? :’) I dont know how else to express it, I don’t know how else to prove the sincerity of my feelings.. My heart was right. It’s just me. I’m just too desperate.

He did give me hope, but I can read his intentions. He just wants to protect my heart, I know that. If he truly intends to like me, at the very least he would learn how to do so, and he would surely say it. From the way he acts, he gives me many reasons that truly protect my heart. Maybe dia takut aku nangis kot. :D

Seriously, I don’t know what to say. It’s not that I have nothing to say, but when I feel too much, tears that I’ve been holding back just keep flowing endlessly. :’) So, I better not go into too much detail when I talk. Syera! Be strong! (I’ll be as strong as I can, InshaAllah.)

I know this is wrong of me. I shouldn’t have crossed my boundaries. They are my seniors, and I’ve been disrespectful to them. I feel so bad. :’( But these feelings come from my heart. Am I wrong? :(

I truly love him. I want to keep it to myself, even though many might already know because of my carelessness. I’ll make sure that news fades away gradually over time because I don’t want him to feel uncomfortable. Despite everything, my feelings remain strong. Let these feelings be mine alone.

Now I feel indifferent towards any man who tries to enter my heart. Hmm… “You’re only 19, Syera…” Maybe after this, I’ll become even more guarded. I hope not. Hmm… perhaps I’m not worthy of meeting and being happy with my Romeo.

What’s certain is that I only love him, and I’m not sure how long this feeling will last. In my heart, it’s only him. It’s always been him, and it will always be him! I hope he knows and feels it.

Sure, now I’m going to take a long shower to sort things out in the bathroom before my roommate notices I want to ‘cry out’. After that, I’ll go online for a bit and then sleep. Goodnight!

* Love that is felt isn’t always returned, and love that appears isn’t always reciprocated. This is because feelings enjoy playing riddles. Thus, we never know with whom and when the feelings that emerge will unite. :’)


Let me cherish you in my heart


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